BlogLand: In every bunch of zebras there’s a donkey…and an ostrich.
It’s been 12 days since my last post and I feel like I need to apologize! But that’s silly, isn’t it? I may have set a standard of one or two posts per week but I’ve had nothing to say that warranted an actual post. I’ve even been quieter on Twitter lately but posted two recipes to my Facebook page that I have been well received.
Reality of Blogging
The thing is… my mom is dying. Last year I visited her in hospital on my birthday where she was recovering from colostomy surgery and this year she is trying to manage the pain she is having from stage 4 cancer. No one enjoys seeing someone they love in pain. It makes you feel helpless and frustrated and sad. It is easy to be sucked into the dark hole of depression where your words get taken away from you. Where you drown in your suffering all alone. I have always prided myself on being independent and self sufficient but those “skills” make it harder to ask for help, to confide in others.
I’ve accepted depression as a reality for me. It is not overwhelming my life (yet) so I am still functional but it is something I know I need to watch out for. It has taken me a year to realize that I won’t have my mom for much longer. I understand it in my head but my heart is taking a little longer to accept the message.
Life is short.
Shorter than anyone can ever imagine. The scary reality is that you can kiss your loved ones goodbye in the morning and not know that it could be for the last time. We all think we have time. “I can do it tomorrow.”
I am making a conscious effort to not say things like, “I will travel once the kids are finished with school” or “I will do … when I retire”. Not everyone has the privilege of growing old and I am trying to make the best of every day that God has given me. In terms of parenting my motto has become, “You are raising people not fixing a problem” and it has helped me to not try and force my kids into become duplicates of me, but rather to become people who think, make decisions and take consequences for themselves.
Future of Freelancing?
As of November 2015 I will no longer have a job as my current 5 year contract ends, then again, I might be alive to see the day. As a result I am not spinning my wheels (yet) to find another job. I feel like as long as I am on the lookout for the right opportunity, I will see it. Yes, I am applying for jobs but if it doesn’t work out then it wasn’t meant to be.
I would love to get paid to write. I think I write well and could make a success of it. I studied Multimedia Design for 2 years and only found out that I couldn’t draw after I received my diploma. I worked in a call center for 5 years where I did offered telephonic and email support for online casinos and worked my way up through tech support to 6 month short stint in site and banner optimization. I currently support people from the deep rural areas of South Africa and encourage them to complete training and make better lifestyle choices through social awareness initiatives in order that they can find a way out of poverty.
My experience is rich and diverse. I have knowledge of two very different ends of the spectrum and I would like to use that to make a difference in the lives of people all over the world.
I had my brain picked by a PR person on the bus this morning and I recommended that brands would have greater success if they allowed bloggers in on the brainstorming process. We have the skills and talents to profile their products and our honesty means more to readers than a full page ad in a magazine. We are approachable and reasonable and we can offer solutions to overcome the unanswered questions and grey areas of blogging with brands.
Brands: I will be more than happy to brainstorm with you. Come and test my knowledge and experience. Let’s work together.