I have such a bad relationship with food! I mean, I love food but something happens when I eat it. These voices in my head sound very much like my Dad and anyone else in my family who used to tease me about my weight when I was little. I am very short and have the tendency towards chubbiness but when I was young, I was never anything but that yet I was made to feel like a glutton and criticized every time I ate something. At least that is how it felt.
Even now those voices don’t shut up and as I result I don’t eat nearly enough to keep my body functional and my body has long since given up on using food for energy. Now it just holds onto everything I put in because it doesn’t know when I will feed it again.
All of this came to a head yesterday when my doctor diagnosed me with insulin resistance. The first thing you might want to know is if that means I’m diabetic and how that will affect the blog. What I can tell you is this, yes I am overweight, my blood glucose level is 5.1, my cholesterol is 4.4 and I don’t have a blood pressure problem. So basically all of this looks ok. The problem is because I am overweight and there is a genetic tendency towards diabetes my doctor has indicted that it is time to get off the path towards diabetes that I have recently started on.
Now, another component of my health issues is my battle with anaemia. I have had a problem with my iron levels ever since puberty and occasionally I leave it unmanaged for long enough for this level to drop down to 5 (it should be between 14-16). The result of this means I am tired all the time, often breathless and without a zest of life. What is the first thing most people reach for when they feel this way? You’ve got it, chocolate or another sweet treat. I think I am seeing how I got onto this path in the first place.
The good news is that we have caught it early. If this grey area of how you get to be diabetic is a scale from 10-50 the doctor says I am an 11 (i.e. just have one foot on the path at the moment). This means there is still time to turn this around as there is no sign of this damaging any of my organs yet. This is the challenge I have taken on and I plan to win.
When it comes to the blog I have thought long and hard and I think I have given you enough recipes to keep you going for a while as I come to terms with how this will affect the role sugar has in my life and as I try to find alternatives that work and taste delicious. I will still blog and I have a few exciting things lined up that are food related but not recipe based. I hope that this is okay with you. I love each and every one of my readers and I hope you will let me know if you have any hints, tips or suggestions on how to work through this new challenge and what you would like to see on this blog.
To summarize, everybody’s story is different and this is especially true when it comes to your health. I don’t believe I am on this path due to my love for baking or because I am overweight. I believe it is because I have taken my health for granted. I haven’t taken care of my body in the way that I should have and my body has finally had enough. Please let me urge you to take the time to go to a doctor and have a checkup. It might cost you now but it will still cost you less in the long run. Knowledge is power. Rather know while you can still fix or manage a condition than only find out when it’s too late.